Lots of things have happened since my last post, so where to start?
As I said, things seemed to be going in the right direction. However, it didn’t last too long.
At home, a very close friend had been undergoing treatment for a terminal cancer, which I have tried to support him with, and another had a heart attack necessitating a multiple bypass operation just before Christmas. Oh, and I have just found out that my uncle has Alzheimer’s….
The pressures of work were increasing, thus making things more difficult, which led to me not being able to cope so well, which led to my work suffering, which made the pressure worse, and so on. I’m sure you know how that works.
I ended up going backwards somewhat, including putting back on some of the weight I had lost.
I saw my GP, and we arranged a small increase in my medication. This did seem to help a little, which meant I was able to look again and see what I could do to improve things.
I have now changed my job role again, where I am now much more in my “comfort zone”, which has helped the confidence.
In addition, something happened which I think is important. It might not be a measurable thing, but I believe that it is significant.
A couple of days after my brother died, his wife gave me his watch, which she had bought for his birthday a couple of days before he was diagnosed, and which he had worn only once or twice. I had been wearing it every day since then, which is now four years.
A few weeks ago, the watch battery failed, and I was going to have to wait a few days before I could get a tool with which to remove the back to replace it. Therefore, I put it away and reverted to my old watch. A few days later, I realised that I was feeling much better.
My theory (for what it’s worth) is that as I was wearing the watch every day, I was continually seeing it, and was therefore subconsciously being reminded of the events which had occurred.
Having monitored my health since then, I have found that my feelings are still in their improved state. I have spoken to my GP again, and we have reduced my medication back down to its previous level.
I have left the watch in its box, and it will stay there. I will keep it, but I will not wear it again.
This is, I believe, a genuine psychological effect – either my theory is correct, and I was being affected by wearing the watch, or it is psychosomatic, and because I believe that’s what happened, my brain is responding appropriately. Either way, I’m happy with the result!
It’s not all doom and gloom though – I had my six-monthly Diabetic checkup a couple of weeks ago, and it appears that I have been managing that satisfactorily. I’m still doing it with diet – no medication.
Not only that, but I have just started some Pilates classes. Not bad when you’re 59!
Thank you for taking the time to read this, and although it’s rather (very!) late, may I wish you all you wish for yourself for 2016.